I had been feeling overwhelmed these last few weeks. It came to a point where I just wanted to run away, have a mini vacation. I yearned for a trip but if I was to be financially smart a trip wasn’t possible. For better or for worst, I’m a very impulsive person. I rather pay the price that wanderlust costs me.
Here’s the backstory: I decided to take a few days off work and have a 4 day weekend. On Thursday, Nov. 15th, I randomly looked up flights to Florida. It’s like the Universe knew exactly how overwhelmed I was because a roundtrip Spirit flight to Fort Myers, FL was $95! I immediately felt a rush of feelings like hope and faith and excitement. I quickly messaged my sister asking if she wanted to do a weekend getaway. Unfortunately, she wasn’t able to due to finances. I knew that if I wanted to take this trip I’d have to charge it on my credit card. So I thought maybe it was for the best that she couldn’t go. That means I wouldn’t go, which also means I won’t be racking up my credit card bill. So I settled. I finished work. I went home.
Once I got home, I saw my mom and said “do you want to go to Florida tomorrow? Roundtrip is $95.”. She replied, “What? Are you sure that’s real?” She was in disbelief. She had been wanting a trip as well due to stress. This may be the perfect time. So we did some more researching. 5pm turned to 6pm, which then turned to 7pm. By 7:30pm, we were both still in the living room contemplating how much this spontaneous trip would cost us. We still couldn’t decide. The entire time, my left ear was heated and red. I’m not sure why but I thought that of my sign. I could stay at home for my long 4 day weekend or I could trust that the trip was meant to be mine. So I took a deep breath and clicked purchase.
At 7:30pm on Thursday, Nov. 15th I clicked “purchase” to an 8am flight to Fort Myers, FL departing the very next day, Friday, Nov. 16th.
I packed my bag that night and woke up at 6am to board my flight with my family to Florida for a spontaneous weekend getaway. Throughout the night and early into the morning, I was worried that I had made an irresponsible financial decision. I am now racking up my credit card bill even more. But at 7am, I looked at my phone and saw a notification for an app that I follow. The app sends daily affirmations and this one just happens to say:
Money always finds its way back to me.
I stood at the boarding gate lost for words. To this day, no matter how hard life had gotten I had always found a way to make things work. Money comes and goes and has always found a way back to me. I immediately felt relief. I knew then that this was the Universe letting me know that I needed to be present and enjoy what I deserved.
So I lived that weekend more present than ever. Enjoying the nice, warm, perfect Florida weather. I ate more mindfully. Instead of whining about how the red curry doesn’t taste exactly like what I was used to, I enjoyed and honored the different ways people make their red curry at a Thai restaurant. Instead of worrying about money, I purchased Universal tickets and went to The Wizarding World of Harry Potter to fly with Harry on the Forbidden Journey ride since I had been dreaming of that day again from my last trip in Los Angeles, CA around March of 2017.
So if there is one thing that I wish you could get out of this, I hope that you live each and every day as if you have everything you have ever wanted. Live the life you desire even when things are not completely aligned. The Universe has a funny way of working and know that you have been through far worst and made it back stronger and wiser. So enjoy your life and truly live as if it were your last day. Everything else will fall into place. Trust the Universe. Trust yourself.
Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times if one only remembers to turn on the lightAlbus Dumbledore